She overcame abuse, depression and eating disorder to score two As at A levels

Ms Maleha Tarin Moon did well for A levels and can make it to her dream course of psychology. She had stayed in residential homes due to family issues and exited the school system early. ST PHOTO: DESMOND WEE

SINGAPORE - Even as a child, she felt that home could be more dangerous than the streets.

After her mother hit and choked her, child protection officers took Ms Maleha Tarin Moon, then 14, to a residential home, where she hoped to find some peace and stability in her life.

But she was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, and hospitalised for anorexia the next year. Snowed in by personal difficulties on multiple fronts, she dropped out of school in Secondary 4.

Going to work, she thought, would put her life back on track. She worked at a bubble tea shop for a year, and then as a classroom assistant in a special education (Sped) school.

But by the time she turned 19, she was restless. Her early exit from the school system gnawed at her. She wished to go to university as she felt her life was going nowhere.

“My brain was collecting dust,” said Ms Maleha, now 21. “The (Sped) school wasn’t going to give me a higher position than a class assistant. I wanted to find the fastest way to get to university. It would be my ticket out of this life.”

Her friend introduced her to a youth organisation, which set what seemed to her an audacious goal – helping her get ready to take the A levels as a private candidate within a year.

Thus commenced 12 months of intensive studying, where five volunteers, including undergraduates and a graduate student, tutored her in biology, mathematics, geography and literature, and gave her emotional support.

They were part of Impart, an initiative by two men who worked at the Singapore Boys’ Hostel to meet the academic and mentorship needs of at-risk youth in Singapore, especially those who have left correctional or rehabilitation institutions and need help reintegrating into society.

Ms Maleha also managed to get resources such as notes and exam papers from a friend who was studying in junior college.

It was not an easy road for her, having spent three years out of school. “I have so many videos of me crying,” she said of studying maths, one of her weaker subjects.

She pushed herself to study six hours a day, and then 10 hours closer to the exams.

But just three months before the exams, she completely forgot the maths concepts the volunteers taught her. “My mind was a blank. I was panicking,” said Ms Maleha.

But she never lost sight of her goal. “I kept telling myself this was my last chance. If I failed, I would be nothing. So I didn’t allow myself to give up, that wasn’t even an option in my mind.”

Ms Maleha also managed to get resources such as notes and exam papers from a friend who was studying in junior college.  ST PHOTO: DESMOND WEE

She started from scratch, poring over the materials again to relearn the concepts.

When she collected her results online in February, confusion came first, then elation and triumph followed: She had scored two As, two Bs and two Cs.

“I couldn’t believe it, it was crazy. I could get into psychology,” she said, referring to her dream course.

“I struggled with mental health issues, and know people with conditions like schizophrenia, so I was naturally intrigued by psychology.”

She hopes to become a teacher as she loves working with children, especially troubled ones.

Ms Maleha recounted how, when she was in hospital, she met a seven-year-old girl who had also been abused.

They became fast friends.

“She felt like a little sister to me,” Ms Maleha said. “She would spend lots of time by my bedside since I was not allowed to walk. She would bring her toys to me to play... She was a super affectionate kid, always giving hugs.”

Ms Maleha has since gone back to living with her mother, who is making an effort to treat her better.

Supporting her on her mental health journey are a psychiatrist and psychologist, whom she visits monthly. She is also on medication to manage her condition.

Ms Maleha has signed up as a volunteer with the education team at Impart who helped her.

In the long run, her dream is to move overseas and further her studies in psychology, so that she can become a psychologist.

Mr Joshua Tay, a co-founder of Impart, said Ms Maleha is its first client taking the A levels since the organisation was set up in 2017.

Impart has helped more than 500 young people with their studies, enrichment and mental health.

“We weren’t sure what to expect on results day – no schooling estimates to bank on, no prelims to gauge things with, and no real experience to lean on,” Mr Tay said. “A volunteer had done up a safety plan with her to manage her emotions in the event that things didn’t turn out well.”

When the results came out, he and the volunteers celebrated with her.

“Youth facing adversity have so much more to show,” he said. “Impart has always believed it to be so, and we’re proud to see Maleha and her volunteers reify these beliefs.

“Little moments of engagements, faithfully stretched out over time, are now shaping larger narratives of change.”

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