LOS ANGELES • British star Adele said in an interview released on Monday that she suffered from post-partum depression after the birth of her son and had sought therapy when younger for what she called her "very dark side".
The singer, who is nearing the end of a 10-month tour for her album 25, told Vanity Fair in an interview for its December cover story, published on its website on Monday, that she would be happy if she never had to tour again. "I'd still like to make records, but I'd be fine if I never heard (the applause) again. I'm on tour simply to see everyone who's been so supportive. I don't care about money," the 28-year-old was quoted as saying.
The 10-time Grammy winner, known for heartrending ballads such as Someone Like You and Rolling In The Deep, said she had always been drawn to sad music.
"I have a very dark side. I'm very available to depression. I can slip in and out of it quite easily. It started when my granddad died, when I was about 10, and while I never had a suicidal thought, I have been in therapy, lots. But I haven't had that feeling since I had my son and snapped out of my post-partum depression."
She has a four-year-old son, Angelo, with her boyfriend, businessman Simon Konecki, 42.
"I had really bad post-partum depression... and it frightened me," she said. "My knowledge of postpartum is that you don't want to be with your child; you're worried you might hurt your child... But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life. It can come in many different forms."
Eventually, she decided to take an afternoon a week off motherhood, to give herself more time.
She acknowledged that her future songs would likely never match those she wrote for her 2011 album 21, which has sold more than 31 million copies worldwide.
"I can see from an outsider's perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I'm not as indulgent as I was then... I was completely off my face writing that album and a drunk tongue is an honest one."
Since having a child, she has quit smoking and drinks only a couple of glasses of wine a week.